Saturday, February 27, 2010

To my wonderful Mother...

My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer in September 2008 a week after her 73rd birthday.  Now to some of you that may seem old but in my Mother's case she was a very young, vibrant 73 years young.  She did all the right things, ate good, didn't smoke, exercised, always tried to keep a positive attitude, had a wonderful sense of humour... then bang you get hit by a freight train.  What we take for granted everyday, now becomes such a challenge. 

As this whole thing started to play out , my mind was so consumed with grief and fear that I knew I needed an outlet.  I was an avid blog follower but most times I was just a plain lurker. I would escape into blogland just to divert my thoughts elsewhere.  

I had been doing makeovers for awhile and at that point and strangely enough I always felt I was being led in that direction by a higher force.  I knew someday I would find the answer why... well you could have knocked me over with a feather when I finally realized what it was.  If you are troubled,  doing something creative helps you work through it... that is so true, believe me.

The day we were told that the cancer had spread to the brain and the spine was like living the nightmare all over again.  Guided by my higher being I opened the link "Create New Blog"... I was totally clueless, but I love a challenge and it wasn't too long before I was whipping in and out of it like an old pro.  It was the very thing that I needed.  It gave me a purpose to continue and a reason to use that creative gene that I inherited from my mother... and helped me to document my journey along the way.

Monday, February 22nd, 2010 we lost the most precious treasure we had... you will be so sadly missed. I dedicate this to you Mom you have always inspired me to carry on, no matter what the circumstances were.  I love you and will miss you immensely .

16 comments:

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Dear Deb:
What a lovely photograph of your mum...and a loving tribute to her. My mum is 73 now, and will be getting married for the second time in April. So much life left to live. I'm so sorry that you've lost your mum. Know that you have my healing prayers and thoughts. I know words can't ease your grief, but hope that time and our gracious Lord will leave you with only happy memories of your precious mum.
Blessings,
Donna

gail@myrepurposedlife.blogspot.com said...

Deb, I'm so sorry for your loss. Mothers and daughters have a special bond that death cannot break. I pray that the memories will help you get through this most difficult time.
gail

whitey said...

I am so sorry for your loss, I to started to blog after the death of my Dad not right away it took me a while. My Mom is still here but I see her struggle , and it scares me, just not ready to have her go Dad has been gone now three years. I hope your pain will ease but I know to well it takes along time.

Nori said...

my prayers are with you Deb. i'm so sorry for your loss. what's crazy is that earlier this week i thought of you... i haven't stopped by your blog in awhile and you just came to mind and i said a little prayer for you. now i know why. blessings to you sweet friend as you go through this difficult time. i pray that your surrounded by support and lots of love as you remember your dear mom.

Kolein said...

I just found your blog today. Your words to and about your mother were so beautiful. She has an amazing daughter as well. I grieve with you friend. Because we are all in this together. Without knowing you personally, I do know your heart - one overflowing with love and touched by another's love. These are true gifts that are never forgotten or lost.

My God keep you and hold you today and every tomorrow. Blessings, Kolein - New York

Rory -The Greentiques Solution Guy said...

I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I too lost my mom a few years ago and I know how awful it can be. I still miss her. Healing takes a long while. Take each day one at a time. -Rory-

Willow said...

Deb,
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my Mom at age 21 and she was 54 years young. But God needed her more than I did. Your tribute to your Mother was beautiful and sure misted my eyes....Will pray for comfort for you and your family.
So glad to be a reader of your blog.
Prim Huggs n Blessins
TJ

Julie @ followyourheartwoodworking said...

Sorry to hear of your loss, Deb. I'm sure she was so very proud of you with your creativity and all you did for her.
Big hugs,
Julie

DeeDee said...

Dear Deb

Your are not going to believe this but my blog story is the same as yours...I lost my mom to lung cancer February 25th 2009. I started my blog not long after she was diagnosed becasue I found I crafted my sorrows into everything...it eased my pain. my mom was only 64 years young. Lost my day 1 year before her..to lung cancer also.

I wondered what had happened to you, my heart crys tears with you and hope you keep the precious memories of you mom close. I will keep my continued prayers with you and your family. hugs my friend..so sorry for this time.

I crafted my heart out for an entire year here....let it ease your heart.

Beverly said...

Big Hugs Deb! I am so very sorry for your loss.
I lost my father, step-fater and grandfather to lung cancer.
What a beutiful person she was, I am sure she was just a beautiful inside as she was on the outside.
I will say prayers for your peace and healing.
Lova ya my bloggy friend!

Rose said...

Deb,
My thoughts are with you during this sorrowful time. I pray your wonderful memories of your Mom help sustain and comfort you.

There are lots of people out there right now, returning all those hugs you have so freely given out in blogland.
Here's a few more..0000000000000
Rose

Carol said...

My newfound friend, you have my sincerest sympathy for your loss. Your mother was a beautiful woman inside and out, and bestowed all of her greatness within you. I'm so glad you clicked on that link and that we happened upon each other. I wish you all the best and I know your momma is proudly looking down upon you and would want you to proceed as she would. ((Hugs)) to a goodhearted gal:)
Carol

LizO said...

I'm so sorry to read about your mother. Losing a mom is never easy (lost mine when I was 15) but remembering the wonderful times can bring a smile to your face when all the world seems in chaos.

Many hugs,

Liz

Proper Prim said...

I hope I have answered everyone individually for your kindness at this difficult time.

It meant so much to me that you all took the time to offer your heartfelt condolences... I just can't tell you what a wonderful feeling it is to know how many dear friends I have in blogland and I can only pray someday we all get a chance to meet.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart and you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs to all... Deb ... xo

Anonymous said...

Deb, what a gorgeous Picture of Ma.. I miss her already, but we have so many wonderful and funny memories of her to hold close to our hearts.. I have read all the wonderful heart felt comments your fellow bloggers have writen to you.. It is so wonderful to see so many caring and loving people out there..
What a lovely tribute to your Mom, she sure would be proud.. God Bless.. luv you ..

hugsssssssss, Janet

Janet said...

P.S. thanks for a fabulous weekend.. :)